7 ways to Unwind on Sunday

Sundays has historically been a day for Church and relaxation! These days it has become an extension for partying ! “Sunday Fun-Days” have become the new thing !

Everyone enjoys Bottomless mimosas and Brunch! But I prefer to RELAX! I utilize my Sundays if time allows for unwinding! To mentally prepare for the week ahead . To allow myself the time to let go of the previous week and to make light of everything weighing on my shoulders ! This is something new I have been forcing myself to try and so far so good. It’s been helping me to feel refreshed and not so overwhelmed. I decided to share the 7 ways I choose to unwind.

1. limiting my social media use !

By Limiting myself to maybe an hour or sometimes completely cutting social media out of my day helps me to focus more on the things around me ! Social media has so many things going on and believe it or not transfers heavy energies to you while scrolling.

2. Staying in!

Keeping myself in doors and preserving my energy allows me the time to enjoy ME instead of sharing what may be the last bit of my energy with the world

3. Catch up on sleep !

We all know with work and other activities we all wish we had a napping hour sometimes ! This is the time to sleep or just rest our bodies.

4. Meditate

This is usually the first thing I do . I wake up while the sun is still rising and do morning stretches and meditate! It allows me to free my mind and spirit of anything negative and take in what’s needed for me to be at peace

5. Write out a plan

A lot of us run around and forget things during the work week. But if we take the time to write out the plan for the week and stick to it as closely as possible it leaves little room to become overwhelmed by curve-balls

6. Spend Time with Family

Having a moment to catch up with family, or have game day is most fun. Catching up on the moments you missed during the busy week can be fulfilling and help you to let loose.

7. Take a Bubble Bath

Enjoying a warm bath, your favorite glass of wine, and bath bomb is always amazing. Spending time relaxing in the water helps for restoration and allows for a good nights sleep.

Of course these tips don’t always have to happen on a Sunday they can happen any time you are just needing a small moment to relax and rebuild your strength. These tips are meant solely to give direction to accomplishing mental peace and spiritual calmness.

Please comment and share your tips to relaxation

Who Heals the Healers?

Often the strong friend or family member has no one to look to in their time of need ! They give in all ways and always to help others find balance and healing within themselves and their lives ! But strong people need healing as well . They need to know they can show their vulnerability and be strong in sharing their emotions. The healer often suffers in silence because they feel as if showing emotion is a sign of weakness to those who look to them for strength. Be mindful of your strong friend/family .

Understand that the strongest people around you carry the most weight and always feel obligated to be a shoulder, an ear , a ride , and an ATM! They feel like if they aren’t there then who else will ! But just like you they need someone to be there.

I know because I have always been the “go to ” and it can be exhausting . Giving and giving and leaving myself the leftovers. And often times I didn’t have anything left to give…ME!c7a4fd4542b18e0448ccfa6aa0df6c39.png

I had to talk to myself and remind myself it’s OK to say no ! It’s OK to not answer my phone and not always be at the beck and call of someone’s else’s problems. Sometimes they needed to learn to solve on their own . The problems were placed in their lives because the universe was teaching them something, and how could they learn if there was always someone like me there to fix the problem for them.

We must look outside ourselves and the selfishness of having someone we can count on and worry about who we can help as well. We all need help from time to time but make sure to check on your strong friends and family

They may need YOU today!

 

 

To Heal

…you must speak.

You must walk in a darkness and hope the prayers you speak only in your darkest moments shed light from your heart.

Tell yourself the only thing in the way of my healing is forgiveness.

Cry tears, kick, scream, and smile at your ability to embrace your hurt,

Be strong enough to mend your soul,

Accept the things that have broken you. Stand tall on the broken pieces and say, “I made it!”

Heal because to be whole is to live abundantly.

 

Poem from “Rose Petals Under a Reaper’s Robe”

 

Black Men: Who do you vent to?

Recently I asked a random question on Facebook just to see the answer. The question was; ” Black men ,who do you vent to ?”

The answers I got were almost all the same.  Many of them did not vent because they don’t trust anyone, felt the women in their lives would throw their feelings in their faces or simply coped by drinking and/or smoking marijuana. I asked this questions unsure of the feedback I would get but the answers made me sad.

How or why is it that Black Men don’t have ANYONE. OR feel they don’t have anyone I should say. I asked the reasoning behind some of these feelings and a lot of the men said they have been taught that it is weak to show emotion or told that no one cares how they feel.  They stated they were  programmed to suck it up and go on about their lives while burying their problems. It made me wonder  what makes men think that their feelings don’t matter or that they are weak for having emotions. Its what makes us human and I started to ask myself where it begins. Naturally understanding home is our first teacher. bmtweet2

I have four sons and I sometimes used to find myself telling them to ” stop crying like a little girl” and then I changed my ways. Not only little girls cry, HUMANS cry! We cry because were happy, sad, and angry. And it is OK ! Showing emotion doesn’t make a man weak, or vulnerable it makes a man strong and confident enough in himself to show that he cares. Not only cares about what is going on with him or the things around him but shows the courage to want to talk about his inner pains or concerns in order to get help and work on his issues.

I think naturally parents sometimes say certain things or make statements and don’t allow themselves to explain to the child what it means. When I talk to my sons I allowed myself to be open and honest. I told  them that as men they are the protectors so they are seen as strength but they also have emotions and they have a right to be heard. I tell them they have to learn not everyone will be receptive to their abilities to talk about their feelings BUT as longs as they get it out in a healthy manner then that’ s what counts the most.

The black community has to do a better job of working together in allowing black boys and men to be  vulnerable. WE have to try and change our own thoughts about what it means to be weak. We have to stop allowing ourselves to believe that crying is for girls only or talking to a therapist is somehow a bad things We need outlets!! Allowing black men to bottle up their emotions and pretend they don’t have them only hurts them in the long run. It affects their communication , their ability to trust and connect with others and in their romantic relationships. Bottled up anger leads to disastrous things. Lets protect Black Men and their mental health.

Postpartum Depression is a REAL thing !!

img_2351As most of you know I gave birth to my youngest son a little over three months ago. And as joyous as this experience has been for others it has been a bit of a struggle for me ! I couldn’t really put my finger on what was going on with me emotionally. Of course moms always think that we will bounce back and go right back to our bodies before baby, that we will still feel sexy and that because we are already moms that we have got it all under control.

That is what I thought and I was 100% WRONG ! This pregnancy with my son was very difficult. I was in some of the worst pain in my life, and also my son was diagnosed with having only one kidney. So this along with all of the hormonal stuff , I started to noticed that I wasn’t as engaged as a new mother should be. Of course I did the feeding and diaper changes but my urge to not want to be around my baby or any of my babies for that matter became stronger. I started losing my interest in wanting to be affectionate with them . It just became this overwhelming feeling of ” LEAVE ME ALONE .”

I didn’t want to come out of my room , make dinner , or help them with anything . I honestly just wanted to hide from them. Of course me being the woman that I am as much as I had these feelings I was also feeling terrible about this. Like what sort of mother wouldn’t want to be around their children or hold their new baby. But it was just my reality. So I told my partner that I was not feeling like myself and of course I think he was just assuming I meant because I was being a mom to older children and staying up all hours of the night breastfeeding a new born.

But the feeling was deeper and naturally trying to convince myself nothing was wrong I kept bottling the feeling up and I started to become more irritable and snapping at everyone. On top of the fact that I was crying for EVERY little thing. I forgot my phone upstairs I’d start balling, or my baby would cry, and I was for sure crying louder and harder then he was.

All of this lead me to see my therapist and that’s when I realized what I have been feeling is Postpartum Depression . It was a very REAL thing. The saddest part was I sat and told myself ” this is not a BLACK woman thing” But in reality mental health issues don’t skip you because of your race. The fact of the matter is so many more women of color suffer from this and don’t get the right help or treatments. They live and suffer with this DAILY and yet they have no one. They don’t  have the home support or family support. They cant afford the medications , or  therapy sessions but most of the time they don’t want to have the shame behind saying that something is wrong with them and they need help.

Truth is we all need help and its OK to ask . I am not big on asking others for help and day to day is a struggle with trying to understand what is currently going on with me . I struggle to voice how I feel and allowing myself to be vulnerable in situations that I otherwise wouldn’t be. I had to accept the fact that If I didn’t take the steps forward to handle this situation that I wouldn’t be OK , my babies would suffer and ultimately this ” THING” would consume me.

My son is only three months old and i’m not sure how long this will take to get better. I am unsure how it started but I do know that I am willing to work through this and also let others know that getting help is important. To understand the symptoms.

  1. Sadness
  2. Mood-swings
  3. Feeling overwhelmed
  4. Crying spells
  5. Problems with memory and concentration
  6. Changes in sleep Pattern
  7. Altered eating patterns
  8. Exhaustion
  9. Socially withdrawn
  10. Loss of Libido

If you are feeling any of these things or just feeling Depressed in any way. PLEASE talk to someone and get the help that you need. We all go through things and it is OK for us to seek help and do whats best for ourselves even when we feel afraid to do so. Take the necessary steps for your mental health. You cant take care of anyone else unless you take care of YOU FIRST !

STOP calling people CRAZY!!

Its been an on going pet peeve of mine when someone voices their deepest feelings or their truth to someone and the only response they get is disregard and called crazy! I think its the most disrespectful thing next to being called a bitch ! I’m not saying that it can’t be said in good fun. I know we all have that crazy friend who says the most hilarious things in the worst situations. This is a little bit different than that.

These are the  moments when you go to your spouse and tell him/her that you may be having some sort of feelings or just need a bit of reassurance because we all do sometimes. Then the only response they have for you is , ” your tripping or your crazy.” Even family members that feel you have been such a nice person for so long that they can pick and poke with you until you finally snap on them. And what do you know, you’ve become the ” crazy or bipolar” person in the family. 62143616_1199116486936546_522513055372804096_n

Then trying to sit and explain that maybe they should use better choice words when speaking to you becomes a joke. As if you aren’t entitled to set boundaries on the things that your being called or how you chose to be spoken to. I feel that it’s so saddening that you may not know what people are going through deep down. Maybe  being called crazy is hurtful because someone feels that they are never heard or taken seriously when it comes to their feelings. Maybe they have gone through something traumatic and their perception of things and people are tainted and being called crazy triggers unresolved feelings.

We live in a generation that claims to be about self care and filled with those who want to take strides on mental health. The first step is understanding peoples thoughts and feelings even if they aren’t  your same feelings or you don’t agree with them. It’s all about being mindful and respectful to someones feelings. Listen when someone speaks, try to understand and if you can’t handle the responsibility of being understanding don’t fix your mouth to call ANYONE crazy!

Mamiana

Whew Chile ! After 39 weeks of what has been my most frustrating pregnancy ever; my little bundle of joy is finally here ! Baby TJ came in at 8 pounds, and 20 inches long ! At 8:26pm on March 9, 2019!! And boy am I happier than ever that he’s finally here ! I had sort of a struggle with my pregnancy. But the real Battle begins. us

When I was about 20 weeks pregnant we found out that our son suffers from Renal Agenesis ! This is a condition where one or both of the kidneys do not develop in the uterus. My son happens to have only the right kidney. ! At first the diagnosis threw me for a loop. I couldn’t understand what I had done wrong, and why God would do such a thing to my son. He’s an innocent baby and he deserved to live a full life with no limitations. After his birth I instantly went into panic mode ! Wondering how could I handle his condition and not make him feel disabled. Then I had to sit and have a conversation with God, and realize that he blessed me with this child because he knew that I could handle anything ; in order for him to live his life to the fullest. And I would ensure that he had all he needed to feel just as normal as any other kids. But what is normal any way?! As much as this makes me panic as a mother I know that nothing but good can come of this situation and he is here to teach me something about life. I am thankful for my son and the journey we have ahead of us.

Being a new ..But old mommy definitely has its ups and downs. I went right back into the only thing I know. Taking care of the precious little one but of course I have to be sure not to lose focus on myself. A lot of mommies will forget they need to eat or even shower. My goal is to ensure that I do not fall into a place of forgetting that I too am important in the birth of my newest addition and if I am not OK he wont be OK. mamiana Officially one week after giving birth I have been so worried about getting my figure back and just having that ” normal” feeling. I just have to remind myself that it takes time and not to be so hard on myself. So for all of those moms out there be sure to take the time you need for yourself even if its just a hot cup of coffee in the morning or a warm bubble bath. Take care of YOU !

BUT on a lighter note I have a few things to share ! I will be hosting my book signing event April 13, 2019. At Chaise Lounge !! For those of you wanting to attend, mingle with ME, hear some of my poetry and of course get those books signed be sure to RSVP . I am really excited to be up close and personal with those of you who have purchased my books and who have supported me since day one. pink flyer

Also , I will be attending an ALL WHITE event hosted by my good friend Melaysia ! The event will be June 22nd! It is a free event that will show case local Authors such as myself, artists, performances and so much more. Be sure to RSVP and come show your support ! And for those of you who don’t know she is also an amazing Author of: Butterfly A Collection of Poetry 

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Be sure to also Grab your copies of my Books they are all available on Amazon.  For those of you Kindle users you can read them all FREE !!!

“Rose Petals Under a Reaper’s Robe”

“Rose Petals Under a Reaper’s Robe: Unveiled “

” Affirmed Queen: A book of Affirmations for the Woman in Healing”

Happy Birthday : Chapter 31

Happy New Year !

Welcome to 2019; a new slate of 365 new days of opportunities. As we enter a new year there are so many things that I’m happy to say that I’ve left behind. Toxic Friendships, bad personal habits that have taken me years to overcome and most of all the self-doubt I have carried when it comes to my ideas and crafts.

January 10, 2019, HAPPPPYYY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE ! Today is my 31st birthday and I’m happy to start this newest chapter in my life. What’s even more exciting is today is the release of my SECOND … yes SECOND book Release. It is Volume 2 of my Collection: “Rose Petals Under a Reaper’s Robe: Unveiled.” I am overjoyed to have so many people’s support on doing what makes me happy. I have shared a bit of myself on each page. Covering areas of my love, heart breaks , betrayal and my overall road to being content in happiness. release19This Collection was a bit more challenging for me to write because I was very personal with my subjects and of course there is always the fear of the judgement from others. My goal with my poetry collection is to encourage and be a voice to someone who hasn’t yet found their way. My collection, Vol I& II are available for purchase on Amazon, Barnes & Noble And of course my Publishing outlet ; Black Eden Publications.

In Even Better news I’m Proud to introduce my personal line of merchandise; “Honeyz Drips“. For the woman Dipped in all shades Melanin! I’ve branded a collection geared toward quotes of encouragement. I hope you all check it out; along with my First Line Of Apparel SwampzENT that will relaunch in of Spring 2019. For our amazing supporters who have been patiently waiting ! We definitely have things in store for you. img_8485

I’m very pleased to share ( for those of you who don’t already know) I have Joined an amazing team of writers. All women of color with such amazing back grounds in Blogging, Podcasts, Editing , even a few published Authors. Along with so much more. The platform is called Queen Media Collective.img_8479 You are definitely missing out if you haven’t checked them out ! If have Five Articles Posted currently entitled:

  • ” Why will be support people we don’t know before we support our own friends”
  • ” Scared of my own Potential
  • ” The Secret is out” ( Anonymous interview on sexual Assault
  • ” Dating ans the Single Mother: Is she worthy”
  • ” Single Mothers and Teenage Boys”

It’s just the beginning so pleased stay connected with all the things that we as a team have in store for you.

January 19th I hope that you’ll all Join me and so many other talented local artists               ( Those of you in or close to the Sacramento , CA Area). We have an amazing Event ” The  Sound Of Art”.img_8372 A platform for local artists and vendors to display their art, poetry, music and more. This event wouldn’t be possible without the Talented John’Nay Lasha. So I would personally like to thank her for the opportunity to be in a room filled with such amazing Up and coming talents.

And Last but not least My little Man will be here So SOON! Already being a mother, I felt like I’ve had this under control. But things are so much easier when your baby is still in the womb ( aha ). I am so excited to see his little face. And plan to share much more of his journey with you all when he arrives.

Heres to and amazing start to 2019! It’s going to be an amazing year for not only myself but you all as well. SPEAK IT INTO EXISTENCE.